just about everyone in the hall my husband attends is deleting their facebook account.
he just cam back from a ms meeting.
what's the deal?.
I am a bit of a FB creeper...I do like to spy on other JW's FB pages (I do not invite any to become friends, I do not want the headache as posted above). I have noticed that some of the once regular JW FBers are not posting things on their wall real regular lately, perhaps they did get a guilt trip from the WTS..but it wont last long.
CHG
these are the songs that describe my 2010 (in that order):.
1) where is the love - black eyes peas .
"madness is what you demonstrate....can you practice what you preach and would you turn the other cheek?
OMG- REM "losing my religion", about two months before I left for good- that song kept comming on the radio, I would all of a sudden hear it at work, in my car, I had my ipod on shuffle & it kept "randomly" playing during my exercising....it was like michael stype was singing to me...kept egging my on to do something to change my misery.
good playlist ele-lux :)
CHG
in january 2009 i was disfellowshipped from jw's.
i documented the whole process and recorded it which you can find here:- death or obedience.
many people asked for english transcripts of these recordings and i'm pleased to say i now have full transcripts kindly supplied anonymously for those who wish to read them.. these will be of great help to those who have trouble hearing or cannot understand the scottish accents on the recordings.. they are available here:- the trial of a jehovah's witness the new site has it's own audio link for each transcript so you can listen along as you read.. the person who has supplied me is interested in the moral and ethical issues this case has thrown up.
marked for later
chg
i was bane and i think i got banned because everytime i tried to log in i couldn't.
i was defending the society as best as i could.
something has happened in the last few months.
Welcome back Bane,
I was in your shoes 2 years ago, going through the same emotions...feeling trapped, scared, depressed- I was desperate to keep my JW family, the JW life was all I knew, but I was so miserable, it was serious for me...I began to pray to Jehovah everyday to die, and then everymorning came with a sinking feeling...knowing I was still here alive and so miserable- but Jeh's people are supposed to be so happy right? I would ask myself why am I so hollow and unhappy when I have the "truth"? Everything began to crumble...I made a desperate plan to escape
I did this a year ago now, it has been quite a journey, you ask what we on the "outside" do now that we don't have meetings and theocratic activities and the "truth"? Well I enjoy my life and do not feel guilty....I go to college, I work, I now have a wonderful supportive fiance who loves me unconditionally. I still search for truth, and my spirituality is still important to me...but I am liberated by knowing that I have a full lifetime ahead of me to rediscover God & I know God loves me.
Most of my family shuns me & I deal with that reality by recognizing that they are trapped just as I was- I move on with my life & try to remember when it hurts that they are doing this because they think that they are acting out of love- they are misguided & when I was deep "in" the WTBS, I did the same thing under their misdirection.
Best of luck to you
CHG
a little background before my recap of my conversation.
my father left my mom and i when i was young, like before i was 5. so i didn't know him other than a couple images i had of him in my head.
i don't have any bad feelings towards him, even though he cheated on my mom and took 20 years to pay back child-support.
I was impressed also with how you are able to be there for your dad, be able to verbally express your love and conviction to "be there for him" no matter what happened in the past, and future-
as a "born-in" ex-JW I still struggle with the "cutting people off" mentality, especially if the loved one, as you put it "made some wrong decisions in the past". It can be hard to let the past go and see someone as a good person, even if they made life choices that we would not have made.
You are very zen about it & I want to be like that too- thanks for sharing
CHG
did you sell it to these guys on tv commercials and send it in the mail?.
did you sell it locally?.
were you satisfied with what you got?
I have done both, on line send in & with local merchants: my best price was gotten with the local merchants where I walked into the store, they weighed and tested the pieces and cut me a check- I used to be a registered jeweler 7 years ago, the gold market has changed a lot since I was in the game & the online guys really do skin you- with them I ended up just asking them to send it back to me after I received the quote, then taking the gold to the local jeweler
CHG
what was it like growing up in a jehovahs witness household?.
growing up in a jehovahs witness household was very confusing.
i learned very early on what hypocrisy meant.
Thank you for having the courage to share your story with us,
where is your blog???
CHG
i haven't really spelled out my story in a single post yet and i think it would prudent.
so here it is and i apologize in advance for it being so long.. .
all of you had to make the truth your own at some point in your life.
Whoa... I read your earlier post and your story just now & as a born-in (now exJW) I completely understand what you are going through. I am sorry this is happening to you, I think you may have to prepare for the possibility that you may have to face a JC because your family did not back down on this one.
We all fear that someone will id us on these sites, it is a true invasion of your privacy- so thank you for sharing your story even though you know what writing it here means for your future.
It is great that you have a calm and collected attitude when dealing with the elders on this one, and it is spectacular that you have a supportive mate through this ordeal- as it is a lot of stress on her too.
I wish you both peace and best of luck!
CHG
i have just found this out and this is why my family are suddenly 100% shunning me.
it won't get me to go back to the cult, but it will result in a very lonley old man not seeing his 4 grandkids ever again.
what a waste!
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18 if you face a similar situation, please remember that jehovah sympathizes with you.
by cutting off contact with the disfellowshipped or disassociated one, you are showing that you hate the attitudes and actions that led to that outcome.
however, you are also showing that you love the wrongdoer enough to do what is best for him or her.
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